You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back.

I once asked my friend what's life? He told me life is like a special game that no one knows what's the ending to it. The decisions you make and choose is whats going to affect the end, so there's no right or wrong. Life's also full of surpirses, be it good or bad. You just got to prepare yourself for the bad ones and enjoy when the good ones come. Enjoy every moment with those around you and try not to think about those who left. But the thought of the amount of  peoples leaving my life kills, did i make it that easy for you to walks in and out of my life? Always thought i am strong enough to live on my own, leading that carefree life i desired. But i was wrong, so wrong. Feel so broken when i learn that others had moved on while im still here waiting for miracle to happen. I lost. I am beaten at last. Let it go, let it go... dont want to live in denial, dont want to live in yesterday's dream waking up to realize that there's nothing , dont want to hold on to anything anymore, give me a break give me a pill to forget everything. So tired of  being sick and tired, just want to leave this place and get myself out of the memory box. When love is over, all i can ever do is to leave. Maybe i still love you, but it is no longer important. Truth is, everyone leave in the end. We all tried too hard to fix that broken piece,  knowing nothing can be done but still willing to try. Let every misery end today, and tomorrow will be a better day. So god be kind, make life easier for everyone out there. I'll be fine, just need time.
 ps./ Its nice to see you again, i knew you'd be back. Along with those damn butterflies you always give me every time you walk back into my life. And if you asked me how many times you have crossed my mind I would say  once because you never really left...