Monday, July 26, 2010

There hasn’t been one day since you left where I haven’t fought the overwhelming urge to put you back into my life.

I need a little space here, to pour out everything that kept inside me. Skip this post if you dont wish to read.

Just when i thought everything are becoming better, you let me down. Just when i start to have faith after the fall, you chose to push me down. Just when i can finally smile and pretend everything's fine, you make me cry like a baby. The day you left, its the day i start to pretend, pretend that i am strong,  pretend that all this shits is nothing to me, pretend that i dont mind at all. The hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay, i lost the reason to my smile, my everything. Whats hurt even more than losing you is that you are not keeping me when i said im leaving, my presence to you seem so insignificant. What went wrong, what made you go, when did we fall apart? Was it something that i said, or is it something that i did, that makes me unbeautiful. Im all out of love, so lost without you, lets rewind everything back to the past. Hold my hand, and promise me to walk with me for the rest of our life, isnt this suppose to be a promise? Every single day, im missing you. Im thinking of you, i cant get you out of my head, but honestly speaking, i dont even want to try. Bibi, did i make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?